During the visualisation, as we were walking along the corridor, everything was bright and very sunny. The door was partly open, but the sunshine did not reach into it. As I walked into the room it became very black, so dark I could not see anything on the walls or the floor, but I knew things were there, I couldn't see them. I tried to walk around the room but as I walked around in the blackness the room became smaller and smaller as though it was going to squash me.

I ran out of the room as fast as I could and back up the corridor where the sun was still shining but I wasn't warm until I was outside in the sunshine, blue sky and blue sea, but beyond the black 'Cancer' room there was a blank. I don't know what my life would be like on the other side of the cancer experience, but I know what I have now and I am afraid I would lose it.