The maze of trees

I'm confused. I'm lost as to which way to turn - who to turn to. Before, everything seemed so clear. Now, which way to turn, which path to follow? Help me, please somebody show me the way. I had an exhibition on then, called Into the light . It was designed as a celebration of my restoration to health - but in fact it marked my relapse. Was the light, into which I might be going, the great celestial light?